Monday, May 16, 2011

Baby's First Day on TV

I was channel surfing this morning and stopped on a preganancy show like I always do. Guess I am a masochist at heart. Anyway, eating my breakfast & watching on & off when I hear a doctor talking on the TV. I look up and get a huge grin on my face because it's Dr Lance Prince from Vanderbilt. I love this man. He is the one who gave us those extra four months with Drayke. He never gave up on my son and he cried the day Drayke passed. I have never seen a doctor so passionate. He was the one who set up the protocal that was followed by Drayke's doctors. All of Drayke's doctors at Vandy were great but it is Dr Prince who I will always hold fondest in my heart.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Happy 3rd birthday Baby Bug

Today has been a fairly melencholy day. Wore my silver necklace that a reader of this blog made for Dad & myself. Worked all day, came home & figured the perfect birthday dinner for a 3 year old: hot dog, macaroni & cheese and for dessert, chocolate pudding.

Watching Greys Anatomy was not the easiest episode to watch tonight given that a bit of it takes place in the NICU. While watching something very surprising happend. A firefly/lightning bug was flying around my apartment, backside blinking away. These never show up around middle TN until late May/June. I smiled, thinking this is Drayke's way of saying "hi, I'm here mama". I think I will sleep well tonight.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Fixed the widget

I just went back to the MoD site and got the widget corrected. Yay!!!

Now come on! Donate to this fantastic cause. It is one organization that truly makes a difference.

Friday, February 18, 2011

2011 March For Babies

It is that time of year. Time to pull out the walking shoes & get moving for a great cause. The March of Dimes helped fund the research that went into what kept Drayke alive as long as he did. Surfactant, nictric oxide and many other things. This is important not just to me, or NICU moms, but to anyone who has or will have a child. Their research is helping to bring healthier babies into this world. Help them keep up with the great work. Donate or walk yourself. Either is appreciated.

The widget is not showing the correct amount. My goal this year is $500.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

2 years ago

It's been 2 years since Drayke passed from this life. Things are different. I am a changed person. I now have a job that I completely enjoy. I moved up to Nashville a few weeks ago & am loving being back in the city where I spent so much time in 2008.

I have yet to get back into a regular rhythm of living. Still feel rather disjointed & lost without my lil man in my life. I am still seriously thinking about adopting a child. Maybe after a few months here in the apartment and at the job I will begin persuing things in that direction. Work has adoption financial assistance & they are really good about their employees & kids.

Moving here to Nashville is the biggest step I have taken towards creating a new life for myself. It will take time but I am working towards a happier life. A life in which I can be happy & fulfilled. A life where I can cherish the sweet memory of my son rather than wallow in the misery of the deep sadness that has engulled my life for the last 2 years. Drayke loved seeing me happy & smiling at him. He would get all wiggly, waving his arms & legs. I am getting my happy back baby boy. You would be proud of your mama.