Wednesday, January 26, 2011

2 years ago

It's been 2 years since Drayke passed from this life. Things are different. I am a changed person. I now have a job that I completely enjoy. I moved up to Nashville a few weeks ago & am loving being back in the city where I spent so much time in 2008.

I have yet to get back into a regular rhythm of living. Still feel rather disjointed & lost without my lil man in my life. I am still seriously thinking about adopting a child. Maybe after a few months here in the apartment and at the job I will begin persuing things in that direction. Work has adoption financial assistance & they are really good about their employees & kids.

Moving here to Nashville is the biggest step I have taken towards creating a new life for myself. It will take time but I am working towards a happier life. A life in which I can be happy & fulfilled. A life where I can cherish the sweet memory of my son rather than wallow in the misery of the deep sadness that has engulled my life for the last 2 years. Drayke loved seeing me happy & smiling at him. He would get all wiggly, waving his arms & legs. I am getting my happy back baby boy. You would be proud of your mama.


phoenix-ashes5 said...

I'm so glad you're moving in a direction that will bring you happiness.

Amber said...

I hadn't realized that it had been 2 years already. In some ways, it feels like yesterday. (I have tears running down my face right now rereading so much of the last two years.)

I still think about him, hon. And you. I'm glad you're back in the area and that you're moving in a good direction. You know if you ever want to get together, I'm about 5, maybe 10 minutes away.